been in a state lately. thrashing about in the dark. trying to be ok with not knowing. being lost. if you never get lost, then you're always in places you've been before. let yourself be disoriented. confused. resist the temptation to resist. maybe being lost can be enjoyable. what would i have to believe in order for that to be true? blindfolded and spun around. it's a game. you're safe. don't worry. have fun. it's ok. it's only a game.